Saturday, May 25, 2013

Accomplishments and goals

Well today marks a pretty big milestone in my accomplishments. Not only have I lost 140 pounds (yay me!) BUT I also scheduled my consultation for my plastic surgery. I'm a little nervous, excited, scared etc. It's a big deal! Finally I will have the body I've been working so hard to get! I can't help but be so proud and happy for myself. It took a lot of blood, sweat and tears to get where I did. I finally accomplished something that I set my mind to. Something I've wanted so bad! So since I've accomplished all my old goals now I guess it's time to set some new goals.
1. Get toned...get my ass to the gym at least 5 times a week!
2. Save as much money as possible...I'm due for a new car and I have a home ownership in my sights!
3. Train for a 5k...once accomplished it'll be onto a 10k. 
4. Always put myself first...I have to be my first priority, my happiness is important! 
5. Get a job as a medical assistant...this is a big one, I'm ready for a change and ready for my career to start. 
6. Travel somewhere new...I'm due for a real vacation, one where I get to see more of this beautiful world. 
I'll be working hard to get these next set of goals accomplished within the next year or two. You notice I didn't say anything about finding someone to fall madly in love with. Well it's not because I don't want that, I do in fact want that. However, I feel that love will find me when it's the right time. I'm happy how things are now and how things are going for me to worry about that right now. I'm a strong independent woman with lots of opinions and it'll take a special man to handle my kind of crazy. I'm picky. I have standards. I'm not getting younger and I'm not going to waste my time on someone who doesn't want to stick around long enough. The problem is that I love being in love. I love everything that love represents, but people these forget what love is all about. You can't force it, you just have to go with the flow. Call me a hopeless romantic or call me carefree, I don't really care. Having a partner isn't a must have for me to be happy. I'm perfectly fine with being on my own. I'm sure one day I will find someone who is worthy enough of my love. I refuse to be used or to be taken advantage of. I'm very careful and cautious with who I would want to call my lover. I have my friends and family that fill my heart with love. Everyone is rushing into growing up. Growing up isn't about being married or having kids. It's about being able to take care of yourself. Having your shit together. Being financially stable on your own. Not having to rely on others. Because when shit hits the fan I want to be able to say I'm ok, I will be ok, things will be ok. I'm only moving forward and I'm not going to take any steps back. Something I learned from my last relationship. I walked away with a wealth of knowledge. I know to be smarter the next time around. I know not to take any shit from anyone. I will not be controlled and I will not take someone trying to be my parent. I have those covered, I don't need someone to do their job for them. I'm an amazing person and I know this. That might sound conceited and that's fine. But I know my worth. I will give you everything that I have in exchange for everything that you have to give. I'm an extremely sweet, nice, generous person with a huge heart. I'm not about to give that to someone who doesn't deserve it. I will not let a man ruin me. I will not let someone think they are playing me, I know the game too well to be played. I work hard for what I want and I get what I want because I work for it. I expect my partner to be honest with me, respect not only me but my friends and family too, and last but not least be loyal to me. I will give all that to you and more. I love being the reason someone is smiling. And I love making people just as happy as I am.  I notice the little things about someone, I pay attention. If you tell me you love something or you wish you had something, more than likely I will go out of my way to get you it. I don't ask for anything in return, I do this for everyone who is near and dear to me. It's just my nature. So until someone can give me what I want in a relationship I'll be waiting but I sure as hell won't be sitting around for it and I'm not going to search for it either. I'll let it find me and I'll be willing and ready for it too.